Staying or Leaving

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Staying or Leaving? This question arouse in my mind lately.

It has been two years and three month I work in here. Almost three years my girlfriend and I have been separated. It has been almost four years I left my college and left my Student Union Community. I don’t know what I’ve got in recent two years. My English skill decrease rapidly. I almost forgot how to solve Thermodynamics problems. Then the question arouse . Staying or Leaving? And I did not make any decision yet.

I have to decided before November.

Staying or Leaving, I still confused…

It’s not the facility, but it’s about You

Two months ago I bought a new phone. I bought if for some reasons. One of it is, I want to install Our Daily Bread devotion. So I can do a daily-morning-prayer. I also sign up for RBC Ministry so that I may receive Santapan Harian for free. I hoped I could keep my Spiritual Discipline. I done thia because I feel so terrible. I mean, okay I attend Sunday Service in GPIB every week. But I did not do my daily prayer. I woke up in hurry, toke a bath, then went to my office in super high speed mode. In the evening, I was so exhausted. Then slept. It happened almost everyday. Now you can notice that finally I did not have any time to take a prayer time. I mean, this it what I experience lately. Did you find the correlation beetwen a new cell phone and Daily Prayer?

I just want to say, it is not about the facility. But it’s about ourself. I have a new almost useless high tech phone. I have free devotional from RBC Ministry. But still, I can’t improve my Spiritual Discipline.

So I conclude, there is something wrong with my heart. Time to change.

Disclaimer : Sorry for my bad grammar. It’s been a long time since I wrote in English (and spoke of course)